to Elkin :
From some pm of people in the forum, there is a mix feeling about u in the forum . Well, i read your posts around the forum and don't feel like you are a bad guys. I have good intention but every places have its own rules. I break the rules and anger the sub-admin or mod , i appologize for that, i know even if i have good intention or not rules is rules and since u are the mod, u have the authority to del thread of people who cross the rules.
Well,i also take one more step back and say sorry that i didn't understand that u are trying to help , and i step on your helping intention by saying that u should go away,well, my fault.
But i will tell u reason why i behave like that since u start the thread on my behaviour. I think u also want to know right ? Reason is simple that i'm very angry with you.
Why ? What i'm gonna said is not criticizing you but more like an advise or suggestion, ignore it if you want.
Firstly,you step in the thread and accused so fast that we are shy. Well,you said that it is a question ,did you really mean that since your later post make me feel that you think me or us want to seperate with the pro like u and normal photographer,i'm refering to your last post.
If you didn't have the intention to accuse me, then please ignore my saying above as it hold no ground or proof.
You was once a kid and you was once a newbie, so i know u have some understanding about how i feel but it does look like in your kopitiam post that i'm just a spoil kid that don't know how to behave. No objection that i'm still a kid,i'm fine with that. My behaviour,i let u do the judging. But i have to suggest u some things. Do check your words, words have power and even u have good attention , it is your words that give the feeling to people.
And one more. I know u pass the state newbie long ago, and u pass the kid stage about 10 years ago when u are 16. Unconsciously or consciously , people who have more experience or have pass some stage will act as they are more superiour. Look at how u look at a kid or how u comment about the behaviour of kids in modern day or about your younger brothers when you younger brother do anything wrong. It's just the way some people,i mean a lot ,live. So i can't really said that u are wrong. People who is stronger have the right to look down on the weak, rule of nature. But things got more complicated here, you,yourself , do you feel you have the right ? How you know that you are stronger ? The way u talk, i feel like i'm being look down on and that get on my nerve.
Ofcourse ,when look at your words objectively it just words,but god said that thy shall not judge right ? Next time put on the shoes of the kid and know why they roll into the mud.
And if u said i hold no ground, i received some pms that you are a self righteous person , well ,i can't really tell u their names since they don't want trouble with people have authority in the forum.
I'm not criticizing u either, just a suggestion that sometimes bend yourself down abit , the angle different,u see things different,u know that as a photographer right ?
This post i will delete after a few days to let you read.